A Life With Errors

We lay down on our beds every day and that's when our minds go into overdrive. The thoughts of our past, future, and present. We begin to cry and wonder why? Why does this happen to me? We turn our phones on and go to social media. We seek a sign, we glance through every poetry page we can, and it hits us, we understand that we are not alone in this journey. That there are many others with such pain in their hearts and have overcome the exact obstacle we have. You can cry, scream and overthink as much as you want, but you must release this pain from your heart in order to move on. You must dump all negative bullshit into the ocean. If you keep bringing this negativity in with your thoughts, you'll continue to live a negative life. You have the most sacred treasure of all, that's your soul! No one and I mean no one can take it from you. The past is gone, take it as a lesson and live the present to build that foundation for your future. It's a sacrifice, but ...

Sometimes you must look back at the past and see for yourself how messed up it was. You look back to understand where exactly was the point where your heart broke. Where you lost the touch of your soul. Once you go back in time within your mind, you'll begin to visualize all the different outcomes and things that could have changed it all. Between all those thoughts and memories, there is something very important that you cannot forget. It's the lesson that you learned. It was a painful one but that lesson did build this new you. Remember, this new you is actually you, prior to the moment where your soul become dark.

I love being horribly straightforward. I love sending reckless text messages (because how reckless can a form of digitized communication be?) and telling people I love them and telling people they are absolutely magical humans and I cannot believe they really exist. I love saying, "kiss me harder" and "You're a good person," and "You brighten my day." I live my life as straightforward as possible. Because one day, I might get hit by a bus. But there is nothing more beautiful than being desperate. And there is nothing riskier than pretending not to care. We are young and we are humans and we are beautiful and we are not in control as we think we are. We never know who needs us back. We never know the magic that can arise between ourselves and other humans We never know when the bus is coming...

One day you will get that chance to meet that one of a kind person. And you'll sit there and talk about all your dreams and desires. You'll talk about your future, your thoughts, your feelings and your past. You'll discuss everything that you have experienced. And for once you'll feel that this person truly understands how you feel. It's mind-blowing in a way, but it's beautiful in most. To feel the understanding of another person can be little scary. But this one. This one just makes you feel right. This one makes you feel safe, peaceful and secured. This person will allow you to understand that you're not alone in this world. That you're not only the one that feels the way you feel.

It is necessary to learn the difference between what you want and what the world wants to sow in you as a burning desire for something that simply does not ignite your heart. Live your life according to your DREAMS, do not try to reach the standard of the society, do not try to follow the routine. Cry, smile, dance, get excited about little things, run in the rain, look at the stars in the clear night, say what you feel, be kind to who do ever has hurt  you, forgive the one who harmed you, don't waste another second holding that life inside you. Shout to the world that there is no standard or rules that can keep you from being yourself!!!